2009年11月3日 星期二

Going crazy soon ......

Its really been long time since I last update this blog. I starting to wonder why I create this blog since I hardly even update it. Recently is the start of exams and I just finish 2 out of 5 subjects. Next week, I am going to handle 3 subjects in consecutive days........

These few days, I went to live at my friend's apartment. At first, I though it is going to be fun cause feel like camping, only that we are sleeping in camp.. But after these few days, I changed my mind about stay at friend's place. Maybe is because I am not that good with them so feel like not in same group with them. They talked gossips,event that is happening , watch movies together. I don't really get along with them. Maybe is because I more like to be alone at aside so no one talk to me much..

Finally back to my own room. Feel more relax. Cause can do everything I like. Mostly refer to being emotional. Recently, I am quite emotional. The reason ? Unknown. Just feel like being alone. Quite envy my friends. They can be together happily, talking, chatting, having fun.. Really feel uncomfortable, sad and lonely. Maybe later will hide in the bed and cry out loud. I hope that will make me more happier.

I told my problems with a friend. All the advise he giving me is to try to interrupt them. He always get along with them by interrupting them with the things they talking about. I try that few times. But sometime, I am not that good and most of the time, it got reflected back. It feels like there is a string between them. I try to penetrate into that string but got reflected and cant penetrate. Feeling more and more moody. I hope tomorrow will be a better day and can forgot about all the bad things..

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