2010年3月25日 星期四

3s

I have three S on my mind now. Sad , stress and sick....

First, Sad. My dad came to have dinner today and is going to leave KL tomorrow. Today straight after school, I went home, take a bath and went to Sunway to meet him. After meeting him, my sis and I went to eat while he attended his dinner. After few hours, My bro joined us and we went to have some dessert then we go home. I never though that I will so miss my dad when I was about to leave. Especially now when only my 2nd sis is still with them for half day ( since my sis is helping in my mum's shop). When I think of them been the only two at home today, I feel so guilty and sad. I feel like Im not a good child by leaving them... T.T So sad. Wanna cry.... Tears already rolling in my eyes but I don't wan to let it out, not in front of my roommates. After I have been to Melbourne for one year with no parents visit me there, I though I wouldn't miss them in KL too, not until I will get homesick... But after seeing him today, I really feel that for the first time ever, I have homesick, as in very serious homesick... I have a feeling of quitting the program im studying now and went back to Sibu... Really sad... Cant stop thinking about them now..

Second, Stress. The work is getting harder. I dun understand the things teacher teaches, I duno how to do the work sheets and assignments given. There are two assignments need to be hand in next friday and I having major problems in one of them. After those two been handed in , I still gt one more assignment directly after that. Feeling like the works are unstoppable. And this Monday, I laugh too loud until I anger the lecturer who eventually just packed up and walk away.. She even refuse to teach us English any more. Then after yesterday, we voted to ask her back. So tomorrow, we will still having english as usual. So i owe her an apology. I mean really sincere apology..

Third, Im sick, as in mentally homesick.. First time ever, I feel the feeling of homesick so strong that it overwhelm and engulf me.... The mood now is so complex... Duno wat to feel, wat to do, wat to think..... So moody now...

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