2010年8月29日 星期日

Last day of August.

Time passes so fast. Its been nearly 7 months since I started to study in Taylor's. The experience here might not be what I expected. I was expecting a change in personality to be more cheerful type of person. However, the changes is not significant and the period is short. Soon I become back the person I used to be. The opening of new semester passed. I though changes will be even bigger but instead it turns out to be small.

I moved to new apartment due to the termination of contract at previous accommodation. After the moving of the accommodation, more and more events, more and more incidents started to appear. All these events are testing my time management skills and my reliability to God. Thanks to God, I still manage to pass through and survive until now.

Friends going back to hometown for their holiday. Friends been into relationship and some from relationship to single. Friends problem might be one of the major issues that is bothering me. I'm confuse with this feeling. This feeling is love, is friend care or just a confusing feeling that sits there for no reason? The only one can tell me is God. I'm waiting for the answer. Or maybe the answer is in front of me and I didn't notice it? Who knows. Praying seems to be the only way I can get off this feeling and head towards reality for a short while before the feeling strike back again.

Now is the assignment peak period and I still wondering around about love.. Continue to pray for God.. God bless you all. ^_^

2010年8月12日 星期四

Emoing

Things changed so fast. I cant believe how fast things can changed within one week. Last week and this week is like totally different time line for me. A lot of changes take place until I cant recognize which are the stuffs I cherish, the people I love. It is as though I have gone into a new world.

After today, I think we are not possible. The attitude of yours toward me changes dramatically. I cant believe these things can change so rapidly in just 3 days times. Do you know that today is the 12th weeks since we know each other ??? I can't believe things can change so fast in the past few days. Last time, I was scare of changes like this will happen.. You told me that things will change, but the people will not change. You once said you will be there. But now I think that is just some stupid words by me and you.

Even since you went out that day, I should not have put so much faith in this friendship. The faith in this relationship is a double edge. Now it back fires and it hurts me deeply. Some said I fall for you. Some said I was lonely so I will think I'm fall for you. But for me right now, I will take the second. The first few days you didn't find me , you didn't even text me. That makes me very moody and sad. But today I try my best to not think of you and get along with my course mate.




Things changed and it changes to the way I dun wan it to be. Maybe this is good for both us. I hope you will find him as your next and your last. Wish you all the best. Bye..